Why thank you. :]
After a month of planning, I have narrowed down my plans to this:
I probably decided to ditch Anime Expo, but I am still going to AM2 instead for sure. Free > Spending money anyday.
All my friends ditched me so I have no ride to Socal. I’m still waiting on someone to give me his answer but I’m already assuming he’s going to say no.
I absolutely definitely have to go so I narrowed down my options to trying to find a ride with someone or just taking a bus all the way down there, which I absolutely DREAD. I took it once and it was one of the most horrible experiences of my life. -_- But if that’s what I have to do to see my girlfriend, I will do it no hesitation at all.
I am staying over Vivian’s house again, I haven’t done so in a really long time. It’s going to be like old times :]
The weekend in Orange County will be on of my final escapes for the summer until I have to get super serious and get my life on track.
Well yeah. I’m not gonna bullshit anyone. I can be a man and admit to my mistakes. Get ready for an essay.
Vivian and I have been together for almost 2 years now , but 2 years ago early on in the relationship I didn’t know what I wanted. I still talked to other girls back then.
I was stupid, young, and naive; I didn’t know whether to take my feelings seriously because Vivian was so far away. Back then I thought it was ok to have feelings for more than one person.
But I was horribly wrong. To love someone means you give them your entire life , heart, and soul. It can’t be shared or divided.
As I found out how much hurt I was causing my girlfriend , when Vivian left me, when I realized how much of an asshole I was, and when I opened my eyes and saw that this girl loves me for real my love for her was the realest I can possibly give, that woke me up and slapped me in the face. Hard.
I threw away my old self, I vowed never to hurt her like that anymore or ever be like that again, and I began to erase those memories from my mind.
I learned so much over these two years, especially during the last year, I learned what it means to really be in love with someone and give them your all.
I still have an enormous amount of guilt and regret. I feel like it will still take me forever until I think my girlfriend should forgive me.
But in the end, all the changes and sacrifices I have made, are all worth it. I am with the most special girl I could ever find or ask for, and I’ll try my absolute best to hold on to her.
I thought the first time my car would get damaged was because of the way I drive.. but no someone backed up and hit me -_-
o-o I’m surprised you saw me, I was mostly posted up in the game room unless I was walking around with my group.
I just realized I had a few new followers. Hello! Would you like to leave something in my ask ? :D
Bye bye Stacy~
I dont even know if my followers are local but I’m gonna try anyway
Here’s my craigslist post for info: